Well, it's almost time for me to go back to Texas. I should be leaving in about two weeks...give or take a day or two. I've been gone for about two months or something and I haven't seen or really talked that much to the people who are suppose to be my friends so I have this paranoid thought...or at least I think it might be paranoid...that they are not going to be my friends when I come back. So much can happen in two months and I know alot has. I have a feeling that they won't be there when I get back and if they are it will be really fake. It won't be right at all. I'm all alone and I'm ok with that.

I think that I want to make a website and have journal skins on it. I'm having lots of fun making skins and looking at other skins that people made. Wow I wonder who else thinks that that sounds like fun.

I think that getting over him won't be hard at all. In fact I don't think that there is much to get over. I mean I like him and I think he's nice and sweet and all that but I don't think that this crush or whatever is that hard. I mean basically I think all I want to do with him is maybe kiss and stuff. Yea, I suppose that would be nice.

I wonder if anyone is ever going to find my blog journal. If they do I wonder if they will tell me. Well, I'm off to download some skins and then maybe make some skins and watch some more Daria.

Matel

I'm doing that funny thing again where I like him but I hate him. I mean I love to think about him but just the thought of him makes me sick. It makes me so annoyed and jealous. I hate to be jealous. That annoys me. Ah, but it will soon be over. Then life will make sense again.

I seem to be having annoyed and hateful feelings to more people...well, it's really only two. Neither of them about important. Not really anyways.

Drift

It's not like it was quiet in apartment anyway, but over all the noise I heard it. I heard this little beeping noise. It was like the sound you hear in movies when bombs are about to explode and that is exactly what happened. It was strange because I wasn't there. I saw the huge cloud of fire flying towards me and the first thing I thought was that I was about to die. Then I thought maybe I could live. I could climb into the dryer or maybe the fridge. But then the fridge has alot of things in it and I would have to pull them out and then get it. I'll be dead before I have the time to do all that.

I wonder if anyone else has such random and strange daydreams like mine.